Saturday, May 8, 2010

What's the Deal???

I've been avoiding posting because I'm so sick of whining.  Ugh.  I feel like that's all I do anymore.  I hate it.

I went to the rheumy on Monday.  I had a noon appointment, but didn't get in until 3:30.  Oh well....this doctor is worth it.  At the time, I had had about 3 good days.  When I say good, it means the pain was probably about a 4 most of the day and I didn't need to take a pain pill at all.    He upped my dose of alzulfidine to SIX a day (gag) and he did a chest x-ray.  I had been having some pretty bad chest pain in the upper left part of my chest.  He listened to my lungs and they were clear, so we'll see what the xray shows.  (I will call for those results Monday)

Telling the doctor I was doing better must've jinxed me because the past few days have been HORRIBLE!!!  The pain in my knees is so bad and I'm stiff all day long.  I walk super slowly and I feel miserable.  I don't know what happened as the weather has been nice and I've been taking my meds.  All I know is it really sucks. 

I know my husband is so sick of me.  He doesn't even ask how I'm feeling anymore.  He has even mentioned that I might be using the pain as an excuse not to go out.  I would LOVE to feel well enough to go out!  I really hate being at home all the time.

Unfortunately that's my update.  I'm trying to stay positive.  I'm trying to be happy.  But I'm not.  I'm depressed and down and really worried that I'm never going to be pain-free again.