Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Lyme Disease

I have so many thoughts running through my head, but I don't have time to post a long blog update.  I will, however, touch on a couple of important topics and then will elaborate later (tonight hopefully).

My Western Blot test results came back CDC positive for Lyme Disease.  Part of me is so relieved to have a diagnosis that I can focus completely on and treat without any doubts.  The other part is scared because I know how difficult this treatment can be.

Next issue is my marriage.  I have NOT been a good wife.  I'm not talking about just because of my sickness, although I know that the pain etc has definitely contributed to the way I have treated my husband.  In a recent post, I mentioned getting away from negative people who don't believe in my illness.  That, IN NO WAY, was referring to my husband.  He has been very supportive...especially as he has learned about Lyme Disease and me potentially having it.  It's not easy being the spouse of someone with a chronic illness and I need to give him credit for all he has done.  I love him and wouldn't be able to survive without him.

So...we are working on what has been a really rough spot in our marriage.  I am, also, working on me being a better person, a better mom, and making my house a better home.  I know the key to all of these is to be healthy again.

I am officially starting a new phase in my life.  Positive attitude and hopefully positive results to medical treatments will help me make a more positive impact on my household and family.

Wish me luck!