Tuesday, September 4, 2012

Feeling Guilty

How do I prove to my husband that I'm truly wanting to get better? He's been there for me, taken me to doctors, picked up prescriptions, and more.  He's tired of me not feeling up to doing fun stuff.  I don't want him to think I am using Lyme as an excuse to not go out with him.  It's so hard to explain this pain and fatigue to anyone.  I hate it.

I'm starting a new antibiotic tonight or tomorrow.  Pray I see results soon....


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  2. My chronic pain- migraine, now daily- has been steadily worsening for many years. This has always been a problem for me. I have so often felt guilty for being unable to "play", to go out, to see people. Being with a partner who doesn't understand what's going on can be an awful situation. Even if they do understand- like my husband- it still leaves me torn and guilt-ridden. My therapist says the guilt has got to go. Well, I'm working on it.

    I've also struggled with the "legitimacy" of my condition. I've been questioned so many times- by old boyfriends, by ER docs, etc.- that I started to questions myself. Am I attention-seeking? Is there some part of my that wants to be sick? No. You and I are just sick, that's all. We didn't choose it and we don't like it. Life changes us, and we have to change with it.

  3. Hey Beth...I understand exactly what you are going through. I wrote a book from the patient's perspective ( that also discusses things to do to help live with pain). I just found your blog bcuz my book is the same title as your blog and it came up when I was trying to get my Amazon link to send to someone. Anyway many people have said that they don't have chronic pain but knhave a loved on that does and it helped them to get a better understanding. I don't know if it will help you & your husband but I figured I would mention it. Be strong and no that you aren't alone. You are stronger than your pain.

  4. Sorry for any typing errors above...I am typing on my phone.