Today the pain has been about a 6. It hurts and I feel tired and nobody in my life understands. (Poor Me, Right?)
I called my rheumy today because I am almost out of my pain meds. I only take one a day and I save it for when I feel my worst and need to function. If I don't need one, I don't take one. I'm NOT abusing them. Hell, I've lived for 7 months in constant pain and it's nice to finally get a few hours of relief in my day.
When the nurse called me back, she said that my dr. doesn't want to give me a refill, but instead wants me to go to a pain management dr. I'm so freakin' sick of her pushing me off to other doctors. That's all she does. It is so annoying.
And get this....she said: "The dr. wants you to go to a pain management specialist if you are having pain still, since all the tests show you don't have arthritis." That did it. I will be calling and asking for my files to be sent to the new rheumatologist I am going to see in a couple of weeks. I wasn't sure I was doing the right thing, but now I KNOW I am. In my mind, those words say, "I think this pain is in your head, chick, so leave me alone."
I just want to cry.